Milestones, blessings, and a Rainbow Brite themed 44th.

I came home this morning from dropping the kids off at school – to some big pick-up truck parked in MY spot.

With MY apartment number on it.

Do I know who it is? No.

Do I care who it is? No!

WHY ARE YOU PARKING IN A SPOT FOR A CERTAIN APARTMENT NUMBER – WHEN THERE’S VISITOR PARKING AVAILABLE?!!!!!

This is a small thing. This is truly petty and I’m just jokingly whining about it, but it annoys me because it’s not the first time it’s been done.

I’ve come home a few times and someone is parked in my spot. I don’t recognize the pick-up – to be able to go knock on anyone’s door and ask them to move, and I’m not going to all eight apartments here – to try to figure it out. Still, I almost feel like it should be common knowledge not to park where there’s clear numbers for someone else’s spot. There’s also another big pick-up in one of the visitor’s spots that I don’t know, so I’m going to guess they’re here together – whoever they are.

Thank you to the big red pick-up who followed common knowledge, but this blue one in my spot – who the hell are you?!!!!

Of course, I’m being funny and using humor. I’m annoyed, but at least there was one spot in visitor’s parking open – where I parked, and it’s right in front of my patio door, so it’s not a huge deal, but if I was coming home from a long day at work and just wanted to park in my spot, come in and relax – I wouldn’t be able to.

Part of me wants no part of the headaches that come along with owning a house, but things like this – make me want to start looking for one because I’d like to come home and know that it’s my driveway, nobody is in it – (except maybe my kid’s cars when they get their own), and knowing there will always be parking.

Besides this minor inconvenience just now when I got home, let’s chat.

The weather here is insane!

If you’ve seen the movie “Forrest Gump”, you’ll know the part where he says:

That’s how I feel about this Minnesota weather. “You never know what you’re gonna get!”.

We had a huge snowstorm this past weekend, and Saturday – my son and I couldn’t even get to work.

The roads weren’t plows. Visibility was zero. It was still snowing pretty hard, and since we left the house at 6 AM, it was still a bit dark.

We tried twice to turn the corner and get down the country road by our place, and it was a task.

I like my money. I don’t play about my money, so not being able to try to get to work – wasn’t happening. I was determined, but – nature was even more determined not to allow it.

The 2nd time we turned around to come home, we pulled into the parking lot and saw a crow fly over my car. My son is a bit Superstitious – so when he saw this crow, he made me laugh when he said, “No! Hell no! We’re not going! I’ve never seen a crow just flying around in this weather. That’s something telling us not to go that way. Not to even try to get to work. That’s an omen. That’s a warning!”.

I laughed it off and told him he’s crazy, and that I was going to try a 3rd time when it gets lighter outside in about 30 minutes. We sat in the car waiting, but 10 minutes after we saw the crow – our sirens started going off.

I think I mentioned it before, but our sirens go off for three reasons out here in the middle of nowhere.

To alert people of bad weather / tornado warnings / watches

To alert workers / students in the area and let them know that it’s noon (lunch time)

To call for volunteer emergency personnel to assist regular emergency personnel

I turned on the scanner, and listened to see what was going on, and it was a crash on the route we would have been on if we went to work. Pretty soon, we heard there was another crash, and from what it sounded like – the road we take on the way to work – was closed in both directions.

My son told me, “See? See? We could have been involved in that – if we tried a 3rd time. I knew there was a reason that crow flew over your car. Those warnings are real. Nothing just happens for no reason!”.

Needless to say, I didn’t attempt a 3rd time. We have some great co-workers who went in for us, and we were able to stay home that day. We did carefully drive to the Dollar General around the corner, and get some food, snacks and drinks to stock up on – as we stayed indoors for the day.

I will be going in tomorrow for another co-worker – to make up for that Saturday, so thankfully, I didn’t lose money.

Once everything was cleared from that storm, I was irritated that I looked outside yesterday – and it was snowing again, but – it melted quickly as the day went on and the weather became beautiful. It then started raining yesterday afternoon and quickly got really windy as the rain became snow and rain mixed, and then – just snow again.

I have one friend who always jokes with me and tells me, “You know where it’s not snowing? HERE!”. She moved from IL. down to Arkansas and she’s always trying to get me to move down there. She’ll send me a message, and I’ll hear the birds in the background chirping, and we don’t have that here yet.

I miss that sound!

I have another friend out in IL. who took a video yesterday, and the grass is so green already. Their birds are chirping. The weather is so nice and the sun was out. I’m a little jealous.

I think I need to get the hell out of this state as soon as possible!

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In other news, we have a few weeks to go before my daughter graduates.

She is on the “A” honor roll once again for the 3rd time this year. I am so proud of her, and she has worked her ass off to get every credit – every good grade – ever piece of work in, and she deserves the world right now.

She is talking about going to prom – which will be her very last high school dance, and it makes my heart happy and sad at the same time.

I’ve heard that prom ends at 11:30 PM, and then – the school does the afterparty until 2-3 AM, which keeps students out of trouble, allows them to have fun, play games, hang out with friends, win prizes, etc. so, she’s been talking about going to that as well.

This is it!

The “lasts” are here.

She’s growing up.

Not only is this a huge milestone for her – to be graduating – but she’ll also hit another huge milestone when she turns 18 in August. She doesn’t want a graduation party. She’s made that clear, but I do plan to have some of her friends over, or to maybe do a hotel pool / pizza party with some of her friends and still have her enjoy something to celebrate her graduation. πŸ’• Even if it’s nothing huge.

She made me laugh a few days ago, when she asked what I was going to do when she goes off to college.

I smiled as I was driving and told her, “Go with you! What else would I do? We can share a dorm room!”. She told me, “UH – NO! You have to let me be on my own at some point! I can’t party with my mom there!”.

Me: Uh, you’re NOT going to party! You’ll be too busy studying!

We had a good laugh about it, but I know if she goes to college, it’s going to be such a big change for her, and a little scary at first, but I think she’ll be fine.

She has talked about doing EMT for a while and then going into being a full Paramedic – while also taking classes for her Criminal justice degrees to get into crime scene clean-ups or working in something that has to do with crime scenes.

That is major, and I am so happy and proud she’s on the right path and knows exactly what she wants to do. πŸ€—

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In other news, does anyone else’s kids have 10,000 socks, but none of them match?! lmfao.

I swear – it never fails. I buy my kids new socks all the time, and by week 3 – the matches are missing.

Once-in-a-while – I’ll get bored and sit down to have a “sock party” as I call it, and I invite all the mismatched socks. 🀣 (Humor of course!). I get all the clean socks together, throw them on the bed or floor, and start matching them up one by one.

My daughter has been telling me she needs new socks for a long time now – because she doesn’t have any or none of hers match. I was in her room a month ago – cleaned it up for her and found at least – 50 pairs of socks that were clean and just needed to be matched. I then told her she better NOT tell me she doesn’t have any socks – or socks that match – again, and I showed her all the ones I found – as she laughed.

My little dude – he has a drawer full of clean socks – and sometimes in the morning – he’ll just throw on whatever socks we can find that fit him – because nowhere on my grave when I die – is it going to say, “She sent her kid out in mismatched socks!”. 🀣 I was bored the day before yesterday, so I ended up dumping out the entire drawer onto his bed, and started matching up clean socks, throwing away baby socks he still had in there that won’t fit anymore, and putting socks that had no matches – in a totally different drawer to do the rest of the laundry and see if they have matches later.

It’s quite the fun time. (NOT!) ha. I know it needs to be done every now and then though.

My little dude – speaking of him – he will be in the double digits this year – as he is turning 10.

Listen.

I sit and think sometimes and while I don’t have it all, and my life could be a thousand times better – or I wish it was – I’m blessed. I have a few milestones coming up to celebrate, I have good kids with good hearts, and they’re kind. I have a job I love. I have some great friends. I have a few great family members. I have my health. I’m still here and this year – I’ll celebrate my milestone of turning 44.

I think I’ve mentioned this before, but this year – I want to have fun. Like – really – have fun.

Most of my birthdays are just going to see a movie, going out to eat with the kids, coming home, taking photos, and enjoying a few glasses of wine.

I have no idea how I want to celebrate this year, but I will say that I want it to be exciting and special.

Fun.

Silly.

A few months ago, I was looking up old toys from the 90’s, and I saw a photo of Rainbow Brite.

I used to LOVE Rainbow Brite, and one of my friends joked that I should totally dress up like her and do a photo shoot. She was joking, but I thought to myself, “WHY THE HELL NOT?”. She asked if I was serious, and I said yes. I just might buy the costume from Amazon and do that. She told me I better send her every cute photo I take, and she told me, “Now you have to get a Rainbow Brite cake made and take a photo of you dressed like her – with the cake!”.

You don’t have to tell me twice! 😁

So, my theme this year for my birthday – is RB – and I still have no idea what I’m doing for my birthday, but I’m doing that photo shoot, getting my RB cake, and making it the best damn birthday I’ve had in such a long time. πŸ’•

My kids laughed and asked if I was serious. Yes. Yes, I am!

I always see these videos on TikTok that say, “If you see your mom living her best life and having fun in her 40’s – let her! She spent her 20’s and 30’s raising you!”. Amen to that!

Anyway, I’m about to run out and run some errands, so all of you have a beautiful day and I will respond to comments, emails, etc. and catch up with your writings tonight.

πŸ€—ShelπŸ€—

Senior Ditch Day – almost to the finish line and talking about Ella (The niece).

(The above adorable photo was taken from Pinterest, and I’d love to credit the artist, but have no idea who it is).

Anyway….

My daughter is so close to graduation, and the Seniors have started talking about Senior Ditch Day, and what they were going to do.

They have a group chat that many of the Seniors are in – on Snapchat – including my daughter.

My daughter was honest with me and told me she will NOT be in classes or school at all – on that day. She wanted to “let me know!”. I laughed, but she’s done so amazing all these years, and I can’t even be mad because she’s never ditched school, so the one day she does – that’s actually made for Seniors to ditch – go for it, kid!

Just be safe, let me know where you are, and keep in contact with me!

She is a little disappointed and bothered because they had a choice between going swimming at a water park, or to the trampoline park, and she was one of the ones – (along with a few others) – who picked the trampoline park.

She doesn’t like the way she looks in a swimsuit. She doesn’t care when she’s around family, but when it’s her classmates, she says “No way!”. She asked if we could just go to the trampoline park – when half the class voted for swimming / the water park.

Then – the leader of the group chat changed it. He said they could also do the trampoline park or the Casino.

My daughter is only 17, so she can’t get into the Casino, unfortunately.

Not even to just walk around and enjoy Senior Ditch Day with the graduating class.

Many of the Seniors are already 18 and said they would rather go to the Casino – with one of the girls suggesting they all pitch in and get a hotel room or two for the night. This girl who suggested it – said that the ones who only 17 – can stay in the hotel room until the others are done at the Casino, but I feel like that’s a little unfair and absolutely boring for the 17-year-olds.

I felt bad for my daughter.

So, when she asked if her, her good friend Peyden, and I – could go to the trampoline park the day of Senior Ditch Day – I said we’d see, but most likely.

I don’t want my daughter to be left out because of her age, and I also don’t want Peyden to maybe want to join the class of 2026 at the Casino and miss out because she’s 18 and my daughter is not – but she feels bad that my daughter can’t go.

I feel like they should all come up with something they can agree on and do as the entire graduating class.

So, as of now – the plan is the Casino and hotel for the group of 18-year-olds. I’m sure there will also be drinking of course, so I’m kind of happy in a way – that my daughter isn’t 18 yet. I think it’s sad that they won’t reconsider for the ones who are not yet 18, but it is what it is.

My daughter won’t be 18 until after she graduates. Months after.

I probably will take them to the trampoline park that day, and out to eat. I want them to have fun and be able to do whatever they want to do.

Along with Senior Ditch Day – comes planning my daughter’s graduation get-together. I call it get-together instead of a party – because it’s just going to be a bunch of her friends, and a lot of fun! I’m not sure if we’re doing it here at the house, ordering pizza, blasting the music and just letting them have a great time, or – if I’m going to rent a hall, the bowling alley, or go skating – and just do this mini get-together party somewhere else, so I don’t have to clean up after.

I giggled this morning when her friend Mya – told me that her dad was in her room late last night – asking what she wants him to order for her graduation party and told me they were renting the lot next door to their house for it.

I guess I should start making plans for Kailani’s get-together, huh?! I think I mentioned before that she doesn’t want a big party, and she likes her personal space, so I ended up skipping the Cardi B. concert I wanted to go to – to get her Romeo Santos and Prince Royce tickets that she wanted so bad – as an early graduation gift.

She was so excited.

Still, knowing I have to plan this get-together – (which I’ll probably do a few days before graduation) – and make sure last minute graduation details are all taken care of – it’s going to be a long – next few weeks.

It’s almost here, and I’m so happy for her.

I asked her yesterday when she’ll get her cap and gown because the teens are allowed to decorate their caps, and she’s been showing me some of her ideas.

I also want to take more Senior photos for fun – now that the weather is getting nicer, and I want to make sure we have tons of photos with her friends – that she can remember and cherish for life. πŸ’• I know once graduation is over in a few months, my daughter and all her friends that have been so close since 7th and 8th grade – will be going their own ways in life and headed on new paths with new people and new adventures.

I just hope they all keep in contact – no matter how old they are in the future.

I have friends now – that I met in kindergarten and kept in touch with all these years / decades later, so I hope her and her friends – stay friends for life.

You all know the tears are going to flow as soon as I see her walk into the gym with the others I’ve become “mom” to over the years. She’s my biological daughter, but I have so many “adopted” babies that have become mine since I’ve met them, and to see them all graduate and finish high school together – is going to make me so proud.

It’s also so bitter-sweet because I know life is going to take them in opposite directions after high school, as I said – so – we may never see some of them again.

I pray for all of them and wish nothing but the best for them – including my daughter of course!

My daughter plans to go on to training after high school – to get her EMT certification, and after a year – she’ll try to become a full Paramedic, and then she plans to go to college with the money she’s earning from her Paramedic job – to try to become a Crime Scene Investigator, or the person who cleans up Crime scenes. Yep. She wants to go into Criminal Justice – just like her mama! πŸ€—

I’d like to think that me earning my associate degree and BA in Criminal Justice – motivated her to do the same.

I sat in the high school parking lot this morning talking to my daughter, her friend Mya and her friend Angel, and when they all went to class, I almost started crying – thinking to myself, “These days are almost over!”.

All the high school drama I’ve heard over the years – all the early mornings waking up on school days – all the arguments over homework and different assignments she didn’t want to do and I made her, all the funny moments – all the stuff that drove me crazy… I’m going to miss this!

I know I am.

It reminds me of the excellent Trace Adkins song I love so much:

Before I get emotional – let me talk about something different. πŸ™„πŸ˜

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I was asked yesterday – if my niece’s mother ever messaged me or called. The answer is No.

For those who don’t know – I have a new niece named (Ella). She is a few months old now and I haven’t seen her, except for one photo from when she was born – that my brother’s ex posted online. My brother and her don’t talk as far as I know, and she wants nothing to do with my brother.

However, I still want to know my niece. I want my niece to know that Auntie loves her, and Auntie is here for her – no matter what.

So, I sent her mother a package with the cutest clothes, onesies, baby outfits, Pajamas, baby shoes, baby spoons for when she starts eating, and some other things. I also sent a card congratulating my brother’s ex, telling her I want to get to know Ella, and asking her to message me or call.

Nothing. And – I sent it last month if I remember correctly.

She probably thinks I did it, so she’d talk to my brother, but she doesn’t even know I don’t talk to my brother anymore.

Either way – she never even said “Thanks!”, and you know what? That’s okay. I hope she got it and God knows my heart was in the right place when I sent it to her for my niece. I also included a Bath N’ Body works gift card in that Congratulations card, so she could do something nice for herself as well.

I don’t even know if she got it or not, because she’s not saying anything, but it says it was delivered.

What I do know though – is that a few days ago – I got a notification on TikTok.

Good ol’ TikTok tells you who views your profile – IF – they’re signed in.

That’s right! If you want to look at someone’s profile and don’t want them to know – don’t sign in and just look them up.

If their profile is public, you can see it and it won’t show them you viewed it, but – this person was signed in, and it showed they just made their account recently. So, I was able to view it, and I giggled when it was a fake name – but it said “Sister” from your contacts – is on TikTok – and that “Sister” viewed your profile.

When her and my brother were together, I named her “Sister” when I entered her number into my phone – thinking she was one day – going to my new sister-in-law. So, when she thought she was slick signing up for a different TikTok account, using a fake name, and putting her real phone number when she signed up – that didn’t work out for her.

I sat there giggling.

I told my daughter and she laughed with me.

I ended up messaging this fake name on this fake profile – knowing exactly who it was viewing my profile – and I was funny about it.

“When you stalk someone on a burner account / fake account – you’re not supposed to sign up for that burner / fake account with a real email or phone number that can be traced back to you!”. 🀣

I told her I knew it was her.

I told her I’m sorry for everything that happened between her and my brother.

I told her I don’t blame her for leaving him or not wanting anything to do with him – because of how he is, and that I just want to get to know my niece.

I told her I’d appreciate it if she at least let me know if she got the package that I sent to her or not – even if she wants to tell me to “F*** off!”. I’d respect her wishes, and that I wasn’t trying to cause her any drama or problems, but I’d also appreciate it if she lets Ella know me.

I asked her to reach out to me.

Still – nothing, and now that I sent that message – the fake profile has been deleted – it looks like.

Also, if someone ever wants to talk to me, message me, etc. – let me be clear that you don’t have to look me up, view me or stalk me on a fake account. Just be yourself, message me as yourself, and say, “Hey!”. I don’t mind chatting.

So, no – I haven’t heard anything from her, but she did view my TikTok – and probably my other socials.

I’m just bothered that I can’t get to know my niece and there’s really not much I can do about it, but birthdays – holidays, etc. I do plan to put some money to the side for Ella, and when she is a teenager or old enough to know who I am and me to message her one day in the future – I will give her anything I’ve saved her for, any money, and see what comes of it.

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I wish I had more to sit here and tell you, but I don’t.

My life is pretty boring at the moment and all I do is work, try to save as much money as I can to move, figure out how and where to move, pay bills, work some more, and try to live finally – instead of just surviving.

I love you and hope you’re all doing well and in the best of happiness, love, and peace. πŸ’•πŸ€—

πŸ’•ShelπŸ’•