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A little piece of my world.

A little piece of my world.

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The kids are asleep.

The animals are asleep.

Me?

Not happening.

Do I have sleep meds? I do.

Do I want to take one? I probably should, but maybe I’m not ready to go to sleep just yet.

A little update on my life at the moment……

Bro:

    My brother decided to block me again.

He does this whenever I call him out on his B.S. or tell him something he doesn’t want to hear. He does this when I speak the truth and when I tell him what a jerk he’s been to the people who have truly been there for him in the last year, and who really love him and care about him.

He does this whenever a new woman comes into his life and he gets angry when I don’t agree with the amount of effort and time he’s putting into a new woman or women – and barely sees his kids, so I hold him accountable.

He does this whenever he feels like I’m taking the side of his ex-wife, when in reality – I just know how it feels to be a single mother with very little help and doing it all alone much of / all of the time.

He’s blocked me many times before in the last two years, and then he’ll come running back and apologize – only for us to talk for a few months and me to allow him back into my life thinking we can heal from his little temper tantrums and be close again – and then he blocks me again once I call him out again or say something he doesn’t like.

Recently, it was about how he was taking his new “woman” to play mini golf, and I simply stated that I’m sure his kids would like to do that as well. I asked why he doesn’t take them to do something fun – instead of going out to eat and taking them right back to their mother, and I asked him when he plans to find out if he can see his newborn kid from his last fiancée that just ended things with him months ago – before he jumped into this new relationship he has now.

My brother NEEDS someone in his life at all times, and he’ll jump from woman to woman, and this one he’s with now – is an ex from his past many – many – many years ago. She’s also the same one who stood in front of my grandma’s house screaming and disrespecting my grandma’s house a long time ago – because my brother refused to talk to her.

So, that’s where we’re at right now.

He blocked me again because he didn’t like what I had to say, and this time – he burned the last little bit of a bridge he had left with me. I can’t do it anymore. I’m done.

I love him dearly, but from now on – it will be from a distance and sadly, I’m at the point where if he and I never speak again, I’m okay with it. I’ll miss him, but we have plenty of great memories I’ll forever cherish, and I just have to accept that now – it is what it is!

One of my favorite producers / actors – is Tyler Perry. I’m sure you know his “Madea” character, right? In one of his Madea plays – he / she says:

“If someone wants to walk out of your life…..LET. THEM. GO!”. 🧐

I’m not begging anyone to stay in my life.

I’m not asking anyone any questions about why they want to walk out of my life or block me.

I’m not crying over anyone leaving.

I’m too old for that back and forth mess. If you want to go – GO! See ya. Bye. Adios!

How does the saying go?

“Don’t let the door hit ya – where the good Lord split ya?”.

I’ll be ok!

I’m not one to stay silent or tell someone what they WANT to hear. I’m always honest and real, and if I tell you what you NEED to hear and then you don’t want to hear my opinions or thoughts – that’s a YOU issue.

If you can’t handle the truth – that’s not my issue.

He has recently moved in with his new fiancé and if I’m being honest, I feel like she’s his meal ticket. He’s using her for a place to stay because he went through all of his money, and maybe she’s using him to help her with rent. Who the hell knows?!

He wanted to introduce my nephews to this new woman, and I didn’t agree with him. He’s constantly changing who he is with, and I feel like my nephews shouldn’t be dragged into the life of my brother and his different women every few months. I asked my brother to wait this time – until they’ve been together for a year at least, and he didn’t want to – because he “loves her”. He’s loved the last 3 women he’s been with over the last few months as well.

See how crazy that sounds? That’s how I try to get him to see it, and he won’t.

I love him. I said it and I’ll say it again, but he can keep me blocked because I’m over it. There won’t be anymore bringing him back into my life because we do this over and over and over, and once I speak my mind or a new female enters his life – he forgets everything I’ve done for him. Everything his ex-wife and her family has done for him. He forgets family and good friends, and anyone who actually gives a damn.

This is nothing new, so I just pray for his happiness, peace and that one day – he grows the hell up.

It breaks my heart just a little because we always used to say we were “Bad boys for life! We ride together – we die together” …. just like Mike and Marcus from the Bad Boys movies. We used to argue over which one of us was Mike. I used to tell him I was Mike because I was always saving his ass, looking out for him and I was the protector and he was Marcus because he was always messing something up or getting us into some shit.

Unfortunately, the funny memories are all I have now, and a brother who has burned his last piece of the bridge with me.

     *****

Moving:

I’m still looking for places to move to, and I have come to realize that IL. is probably not an option anymore.

I’ve heard they are raising taxes like crazy, trying to tax people for the craziest things now, and rent / home buying prices are outrageous that way.

So, I’ve found a few places out in Wisconsin – closer to civilization and with stores, and restaurants close by. I found places in Iowa! Yes! You read that correctly. Iowa! I’m not against moving somewhere completely new – still within just a few hours of Illinois. So, the search continues and I know that time is going by so quickly, so I need to really be out there looking.

My lease expires here at the end of May, and my landlord has already found new people to take over because I told him months ago we’d probably be out in May. Rent here is going up, and if he doesn’t sell this building like he’s trying to, I don’t even want to be here anymore with all the issues I’ve had here.

While I love my apartment now, it’s just a headache with some of the things that people here have dealt with. That I’ve dealt with.

Hell! I’ve thought about going somewhere warm and starting in a totally new state, such as Florida or Vegas, but those prices are insane as well, and it’s so far from home – warm weather or not, I probably won’t be happy anywhere else but a few hours from IL.

The search continues and I trust God to bring us to the perfect new place we’re going to live – with more opportunities and many different varieties of places. 🩵

New niece:

I’ll be sending my new niece the cute things I got her later today, and praying that her mother reaches out to me – to let me get to know Ella.

Even if my brother has someone new and totally forgot he has a newborn, I’m still an Auntie and I still love that baby and want to see her grow up.

I hope to have an update in a week or so and be able to say that her mother did reach out and I have photos of Ella, and that I get to see her when I go visit IL. again, but even if her mother decides not to reach out because she wants nothing to do with my brother – at least I know I did the right thing and sent some stuff for my new niece, and I’ll continue to do so as she grows.

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Weather:

It’s been in the 40’s and 50’s all week, and I thought we were getting lucky and about to have an early Spring.

Mother nature lied! 😒🤣

We just got slammed with a Blizzard yesterday.

I should have known better though. It’s Minnesota!!!

Schools were cancelled today.

I have to drive in this stuff in the morning.

The kids go back to school, and I told one of the lead staff members at work – that I’d pick up her Thursday and Friday shifts.

It made me laugh because she does the scheduling and scheduled herself for four days in a row – only to realize she couldn’t handle that.

Listen! I don’t mind more money on my next check.

I actually love my job, and I said that before as well.

When you find a job you love – it doesn’t even feel like you’re going to work. ❤️

Work:

Work is going great!

I had to giggle a bit because the tenants that live in the facility I work in – have nothing to do.

They’re so bored, so they drink. They get into trouble. They act up. They argue. They fight.

What made me laugh?

My son and I work every weekend, so we decided we were going to start playing games with them on the weekends. We’ll either bring in games we have at our house, or play games they have at the facility, but we want to do something with them – so they have other things to do – other than what they’ve been doing or besides getting drunk.

We can usually tell what kind of day we’re going to have – just by who leaves with bookbags, and who we know is coming back with alcohol and sharing with others. Sad, but true!

So, if we’re playing games with them or entertaining them – they may not want to go to the liquor store, or go to each other’s rooms and get wasted, or whatever they do in those rooms.

I’ve talked to a few of them, and they were excited to start game days on the weekends when my son and I are both there.

One of them had me laughing when he suggested “drunk twister”. I told him I would absolutely NOT be bringing twister to work, especially when they’re drinking. He smiled and asked, “Why not?”.

My reply: “Because I don’t need lead staff pulling me into the office on a Monday – asking why the entire police department was here over the weekend!”.

He was laughing, but he knows damn well I’m not doing no contact games when half of them don’t even like each other. Add alcohol to the mix if they’ve been drinking, it can go all wrong.

Part of me wanted to suggest they get a pool table because a lot of the tenants’ think that would be a lot of fun, but then again – I don’t need anyone beating each other with pool sticks or worse, and lead staff coming and asking me why I thought a pool table would be a great idea. lol.

I love these tenants. I really do – but it’s iffy what we can do with them – to entertain them, and what we can’t.

Still, I’m confident my son and I will figure things out to do for fun, and to make their weekends worth it when we’re both there and have eyes on everything.

I always joke that they’re all like my adult children and it makes them laugh, but we seriously do have to keep an eye on everyone and everything that goes on at this facility because one moment – everything can be chill, relaxing, nothing going on – and the next minute – you have a full brawl at one end of the hallway, someone drunk and stumbling into walls at the other end, and someone throwing things on the other side.

I still love my job!

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Health kick:

I have eaten healthy junk all day and I’m in a bad mood because of it!

ha.

Just kidding, but seriously – I know I need to start getting healthy, eating better, feeling better, etc. and I started earlier.

I was supposed to do so days ago, and we all know that didn’t work out.

I lost the key to my treadmill that turns it on. (Great safety feature if you have kids). So, I’ll find that later today and use it for what it’s supposed to be used for – rather than to hold my clean clothes that need to be hung up. 🤣 I’m so serious this time, and really plan to lose weight, get fit again, and enjoy life this year.

I’ve been in a funk for too long and it’s time to get myself back together and be the old me again.

The one who laughed a lot. The one who was motivated and happy before I lost my oldest years ago.

It’s been too long and I’m ready to get back to the best version of myself and stop this pity party of mine.

Loves.

I’d write so much more because I can’t sleep, but my battery on my laptop is about to die, and I’m about to enjoy a glass of wine to see if that helps me sleep.

Love ya!

Goodnight.

Sleep well darlings.

❤️Shel❤️

Happy Valentine’s Day (Tomorrow) & may you enjoy some funnies today.

Happy Valentine’s Day (Tomorrow) & may you enjoy some funnies today.

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Daily writing prompt
What were your parents doing at your age?
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I’m 43.

I have no idea what my parents were doing at my age – except being parents. ha.

I do know that my mom worked at a bank. I can’t say which one she worked at when she was 43 – because there were two. I’m pretty sure it’s the 2nd one.

She started working at a bank in downtown Chicago, and fun fact – she worked with Michelle Obama’s mother at that bank.

Michelle Obama actually talks about that bank and her mom working there – in one of her books.

My mom said she didn’t really talk to Marian much. It was mostly a “hi, how are you, have a nice day!” – conversation if they ever spoke at work, and she said Michelle Obama’s mother worked in a different department at that time, but they’d run across each other here and there.

My brother and I always joked with my mom when we got older and told her if her and Michelle Obama’s mother did become good friends back then and stay friends – we could have been invited to the White House for dinners and parties when Michelle and Barack were in there.

She’d just laugh at us because we’d shake our heads at her.

When my mom left that bank – she started working at a bank on the Northside of Chicago – a few blocks from where we lived, and that’s the bank she stayed at for 30+ years – gaining many customers who absolutely loved my mother, looked for her every time they walked into the bank, enjoyed sitting and talking with her. Not only about their accounts, but about life, and personal things they’d share with her or she’d share with them.

Working at that bank, my mom got to know a LOT of people, and in public – out with my mom – she’d always see someone she knew or who knew her and was so excited to see her.

My brother and I used to joke with her because she knew everyone. Everyone knew her and loved her.

It didn’t matter where we were – she’d always see someone she knew.

We were visiting my oldest daughter in Minnesota when she moved here before we did, and my mom came with us one time. We were staying at a hotel that weekend, and my mom wore this little bathing suit to go in the pool. She didn’t like bathing suits that showed much, so when I asked if she was going to wear the one she was wearing because it showed more than expected, she told me she was, and said, “I don’t know anyone out here in Minnesota. I’ll never see any of these people again!”.

As she was in the pool and I sat in the area reading a book, I heard, “DIANE?”. She knew some people that walked into the pool area. They were visiting their family out here, and when they talked to my mom and then left, my mom looked at me and laughed. I shook my head, smiled and told her, “Even in Minnesota, huh?”. She always saw someone she knew from the bank she worked at, or around the area, but again – everyone loved my mother.

So, what was she doing when she was my age? Working at a bank and getting so much love from people. 🤗

She retired in her late 60’s if I remember correctly, and she cried over it because she was leaving behind so many customers, and a job she loved for so long. She knew she’d miss it, but she was ready to get on with her life and enjoy the rest of it as well.

………….

My dad at my age – I have no idea what he was doing, either.

I know he was working at the Chicago Tribune for a long time, and then he went to the Chicago Sun Times (both newspapers) in case you’ve never heard of them.

He worked with my grandpa at a factory as well, but I couldn’t tell you which job he was at when he was 43.

So, that answers (sort of) today’s WP writing prompt question.

I do know they both lived above my grandma and grandpa on my mom’s side, and both worked.

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Anyway, today – my younger daughter and I – stopped at Walmart to get Cupcakes for my little dude’s class.

He’s having a Valentine’s Day party later. We did V-day cards earlier, and I brought in the box of goody bags I made.

We took his teacher and his 2nd grade teacher from last year (that we love so much and miss) some gifts.

My son wasn’t in his main class, so his teacher told us where we could find him, and we hid her gifts until we grabbed my son from that class, so he could surprise her with the gifts.

On the way to grab my son from the class he was in, we passed his 2nd grade teacher’s class from last year. (Ms. M). She came out into the hallway, put her hands on her hips, and yelled out, “I know you two are NOT walking past my classroom and not stopping by!”. We laughed and told her we’d be right back. I absolutely adore Ms. M.

We grabbed my little dude, gave him Ms. M’s gifts, and walked into her classroom. She was so happy, and hugged him, and he was so happy giving her these gifts. My little dude is such a sweetheart and enjoys when we surprise people.

While Ms. M. and I were talking, my little dude kept taking my “Visitor” sticker off, and I told him I had to keep it on, so they know I’m okay to be inside of the school. Ms. M. told him, “Yeah dude. If you keep taking it off of her, they’re going to come and escort her out of the building”. I joked that as long as they’re some hot cops, I wouldn’t mind, and I pretended like I was putting my hands behind my back. We both laughed so much.

This is why I love Ms. M.

I know I can joke with her, and she’ll joke right back.

She said, “At this point, it doesn’t even matter if they’re wearing a ring or not”.

I told her I can keep secrets.

She did the:

She laughed and told me, “I have you on social media. I’m watching you!”.

I told her, “Hey! If you have my back – I have yours!”. 😁

Oh, don’t get all serious on me if you’re reading this. We were just joking.

You know I don’t condone cheating and I don’t date married men. lol.

We then went to my son’s teachers’ room, gave her the Cupcakes and Sprite we got for the party, handed over a huge box of goody bags, and her gifts, made sure my son made it back to the room he was in, and left.

Ms. M. is one of the people I’m going to miss when we move, but I told her since she has me on social media apps – I’ll totally keep in touch, and she’ll be able to see my little dude growing up.

Maybe we’ll come back and visit from time to time.

Minnesota is a beautiful vacation spot.

My daughter and I laughed as we walked out of the school, and the Sheriff was there. I told her, “Look! They’re already coming to get me!”.

I took her to the high school and came home to relax.

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In other news, did you hear Cardi B. did her first performance on her “Little Miss Drama” tour?

First thing she did – was call out I.C.E. and say if I.C.E. comes in the building, they’re going to jump them because I.C.E. isn’t taking any of her fans.

Everyone laughed and she was of course – being funny because that’s just her personality, but Homeland Security clapped back and said, “As long as she doesn’t drug and rob our agents, we’ll consider that an improvement over her past behavior”. I giggled at that, because obviously – they too – were being funny and using humor. It’s no secret Cardi has a past and has even admitted to drugging and robbing men when she was in her wild days – way back.

Cardi went on to ask why they don’t want to talk about the Epstein files if they want to talk about drugs and drugging people.

Okay!

It was funny at first, but now – it’s getting messy.

Let’s pray Homeland Security can let that one go, and Cardi continues the rest of her tour safely, peacefully, and without drama – but then again, it is the “Little Miss Drama” tour, right? 😶

I did plan on going, but not sure if I still will. We shall see. I haven’t gotten tickets yet, and I heard they’re selling out fast.

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Before I get out of here and go grab a Salad – (because I just started this damn diet again and plan to get my workouts in) – let me make you giggle a bit.

While my daughter and I were in Walmart earlier – they had rows and rows and rows of fresh flowers and roses.

I joked that there were so many of them left, and by now – all of them are usually gone or there’s not a big selection left.

My daughter had me laughing when she says, “Yeah, there’s a lot left because nobody is dating anymore. Everyone realizes that love is a headache!”. 🤣 My kids say the goofiest things, but I can’t say she’s lying.

My loves – I have nothing else today.

I hope all of you are doing well.

Happy Valentine’s Day – (tomorrow) – and please – don’t forget to grab something for the love in your life – even if they can be a headache, too! ha.

Love ya!

💕Shel💕